Chapter 8 - ELISE’S NAME
My mother had been dead for eleven years.
Her name still lived on the fourth floor.
I returned to Bellamy & Rowe that afternoon through the employee entrance.
Not because anyone required it.
Because that was the door my mother used.
The service elevator smelled faintly of steam, starch, and cardboard.
When the doors opened, I saw rows of worktables beneath fluorescent lights.
Pins.
Thread.
Chalk.
Fabric scraps.
Garment bags.
Time collapsed.
For a second, I was eight years old again, swinging my legs from a stool while my mother finished a hem.
A woman near the pressing station looked up.
She was in her sixties.
Silver locs pinned back.
Tape measure around her neck.
Reading glasses low on her nose.
She stared at me.
“Mara?”
I stopped.
Her name returned before I could search.
“Bernice?”
Bernice Cole had worked beside my mother.
She crossed the room and hugged me before anyone could explain corporate protocol.
“You look like Elise around the eyes.”
I almost cried.
That annoyed me.
I had entered prepared to audit.
Grief is disrespectful of agendas.
Bernice held me at arm’s length.
“Your mother would hate that coat now.”
I looked down.
“She repaired it.”
“Yes, badly.”
I laughed.
There she was.
My mother, briefly.
Not a labor dispute.
Not a founder wound.
A woman whose friend could insult her sewing.
We sat.
Others gathered.
Some had known Elise.
Some knew stories.
Bernice told me something I had never heard.
My mother’s complaint had not been only about unpaid overtime.
It was about classification.
Bellamy & Rowe had moved senior seamstresses into contractor status while continuing to control schedules, equipment, location, and methods.
Employees in everything but benefits.
Elise objected.
Patrick Rowe’s late partner, Howard Bellamy, had pushed the change.
Patrick had signed it.
That mattered.
“Did she hate Patrick?” I asked.
Bernice thought.
“No.”
“Why not?”
“She said Patrick was worse than Howard in one way.”
My stomach tightened.
“How?”
“Howard knew he was choosing money.”
Bernice looked at me.
“Patrick kept saying he had no choice.”
There it was again.
The language of inevitability.
Adults absolving themselves by turning decisions into weather.
Bernice continued.
“Your mother said people with power love the phrase ‘I had no choice’ because nobody can argue with a locked door.”
I wrote the sentence down.
Before leaving, Bernice asked:
“You buying us?”
I smiled despite myself.
“Potentially.”
“Then don’t come in here saving people.”
The words surprised me.
“What?”
“We have jobs. Skills. History. You want to improve something, improve it. But don’t make your mother a saint and us victims so your acquisition feels noble.”
I sat very still.
That was exactly the warning I needed.
“Fair.”
Bernice nodded.
“And if you bring in consultants who say artisan ecosystem, I’m quitting.”
I laughed.
“Noted.”
She picked up a wedding gown and returned to work.
On the way downstairs, I thought about the black folder.
It had begun as an acquisition file.
Now it felt like a door between my mother’s labor and my own power.
Bernice was right.
I could not use Elise’s past to romanticize myself.
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If I bought the company, the only useful memorial would be better structure.
Not speeches.
